adept at all eyes new masterful totally
touching excuse me, i can see you rarely
think but how pleased to say 'sociopathic
tendencies, not me or mine, but twisting
and turning spoken wording isn't working'
i splatter anxiety mindless white wall
and sheets make me cringe, i rough up
a seam. ability to echo dirt page and
observe medical journal reverse, what's
the new emulation? new friend and new
torn jeans, carton providing cover, i
wish it were more affordable and should
have told you too long ago how crowded
you are, dripping through, awful continuous
empty space.

suddenly it distinctly surrounds a noisy
vibrate and it's morning, get out after
a mess is made, i never produced more
adventure than smiling positive after
making a point positive and sure.

walk through dufferin grove with a
middle-school-first-rap-cd-scowl
that was a joke,
but it comes from a true place

if i start a diet right now,
i miss you first. lost in a crowd.
cardboard box shelf, this must be
how the rich toss out their gold.
uncashed cheques.

you're woke up
yourself first time in
(how many) 13 days? stuck
in patterned known repeat i am
known for things, opposing things
expensive jeans rainyday legs
to cling for the
meaning in somewhere around
this, knee
denim rubbed raw and it's february
and it's the same
as last february
and you can't be in love
all of the time
floor clung and ceiling stared

who was it you swore to be true to?

against will he does it even bother
such sociopathic (confirmed!) secondary
barely aquainted and SNARLING at the
mention, greet an open armed gang member
with the sort of whimsy love that a
green grass date or new serious smile
can be associated with. patiently
overworking charts to convince myself
otherwise. funny things, you know,
the pride wars of our time. the greater
non-representational poem does good.
of all fall a-
sleep second to keep this a secret only
for me. true worries strain quotes
'and i will be a lone a gain tonite my dear'
and one line jokes to win you over: a
long final tremble stemming from a
forgetful shared exhale.

"i think in poems" he says, sudden
abrupt shift in conversational switch
"broken car window glass shatters tossed
in perfect form dufferin corner, explains
so much. dreaded meeting pretty girl who
two typicals meet later and leave. as if
whatever is done needs to highlight control
v and c
repeated repeated infinate."
are you sudden high end vegan? please, don't
stop smoking for us, please. we all police
ourselves. i think i get it, yes. are we true
breaking the least i could do is nothing (red
room coffee late january?)or rather sweet sixteen
present swiss army pocket knife forever keychain held?

all reality sudden providing
a simpler accounting of what
is really having expectations
mistook smallest shaking
as holding dear or equal,
range street wheelies to
display desire to die
(just pretending is all)

half hording told you
so, if kept close unable
to let down again our guard
biceps still rip summer time
shirt sleeves trash likely
so embarassed for you right
now, hide nothing!
freedom, for you? still laugh.
flock of bees majestically
foaming at your mouth

"see what i mean? it just
doesn't stop."

our quickly usually pure agony and
run off really start to live some new
or tense sudden taking place and the
bottom is so secret and maybe not
that great

i said for once first done to need
to just leave or do what i think
is right right now, arm around
you when i think you look like
i like blue skies too

make the most or is it
your face? drink long week
and eat spring green mix
one married if not me right
hopefully wasn't a good
answer by myself i left
it sensible and if we fell
asleep it would
be completely okay.

c lippi ngor f-r-am e ddam;age d an d
m is sin g, tv s'hows / your lover' e(n)j(o) ys

pencil grey hand sides from no work
strange new proper prowling deciding for me
if you were sitting here (ithere)
i picture us the forthwright two hence would
say to you straight,
'i would make an exception for you.'
and you, please(ingly)smile please,
miss pretty face,

exposing nothing but miss pretty face,
bare in all learning, not but
bent strings for once not lying
(i ca nt ell byy our eye s,the ya rel oo king a tme)
a don't believe this is happening or pity.

parked car woke up quiet day working no big deal last time someone else's windows

on and off wastering away
late ghost slurrings all through
bar el it a ll eyorh all,
lovely lovingly lovers freezing lips
on all plural others and rival their pleads away

miss pretty face and hasn't eaten
bows her head or hunts tip toeing
(delicate word)(talks) particular unblinking
twisted angle and hips to
mine/ tenths or kisses or untouching sleeps.

ne vert here o rpr et tyfac ed
doesn't think of me fondly (rarely thinks)
but sentimental gripping through
acknowledged at last is longed

reacting as though the sun was left alone
for a long time and then crashed into by a
m i l li on sm all er s tar s

tracked breathing off
relaxing with several
companions or foul
playing dust turners
at the sound of

'what was that?'

what just disappeared into you?
was it a breeze or a memory? did you jolt
something frightening waking you every hour, hour fearing your sleep
again you have become so still eyed, hard, sore-
songs you didn't write at sixteen intact, hiding cigarette packs under the living room couch with a chewing-gum smile
running swift through 24/h news channel meaning
i'm bound to do it someday explained friendly enough
'hyper mistook an exclusive trembling meant only for you.'

you, now, the exactly what is the definition of the
type, smiling disaffected no, with too
the pretty one to cry never and short hunting to
satisfy the stop and speak (if not but for one moment) worst
about my thoughts, "deceiving is expression; heart" pure; but no
other knowledge how to express or import what (desire,
or a chipped book reference putting away the months ago) I know
that you will read this, and you will know that this is about
you and that you crossed my twentyfivethousandsixhundredandfiftyfivetimes
since my lips have crack of a black smile too far
and opened house-length of walked hours (there is
thus a littler thing which I say outside
extremely that
I believe inside, and you are all three years worth of time between them.)

'god is with us,'
(little hands shaking)

really, all ready
to everyone (else)
who is all she sees
-take it to or
take my words or
dried up peace offerings

how do you solve a problem like
a week later?

dead serious.

true beauty is your
suicide note secret alphabet of
1/2 sitcomss to end
to settle into sleep

--precise, wait for the 5 o'clock
shirt, not mine!
ha ha ha ha
(oh)butitmademe feel
like i was there;
your muscle has everything
,,,
ijustchewonmytongue
feels good,
doesn't it?

the lower back isn't worried!
or badly included/understood,
grazble however!
does the cord undernoticed along
the point have to be, intentional
heart scrambled curiously?
passed by the quick glance described
as thinking of you laughing in bed?
your very removed grace reflected?
forget the neversmiles or ordered traditional slack.

who hasn't or did want this,
but fixed a long ago?
deader falling for years and
composed of the spirits? will
you hide your eggs on New Year's Day
or the day before? curative time management
labelled with intregue and underhealing wounds?
the dissolved high account of wire or pleasant english.
memorized 16yroldphone numbers and
metered pavement counting stage.

you know all the solved and dazed walkers in love,
neverlinedcrosserundersuresecondguesserofopportunity.

the handsome theory of the strange
and sudden self-assured
a quite small 'sweet pea' you smile,
only going all the way half the
time midnite raid of complete and total
thoughts thin, and shirts wrinkled from
already worn + devoted to wrapped around
you but good, how to respond except do
not to a suggesting allergic impossibility
post-blues printed and taped up (the door)
embarassed that it is a good way of dealing

how much of a preparation is needed? comes
in time, surely spotless dinner napkins tossed
from lap to floor bright girl subscription to
smashing starbucks windows late at night.

tall and waxing cursed ideal in all the still
unable sentance stringer, satisfied
easily nihilistic anxiety (hyperbole) nicely
given to choices and cleavage, wasting something

so wall calendar concieved accurately and to
all impressed precision forget and uncanny
imitation and yes, it would be nice every
present habit and shifting accounts for these
dear friend,
suceed path and past and immersed unclear who
placed these bets. twin doubled crisis navigation
makes a charmingly perfect suffering-
staying in the business of having no business living.
(it's good work if you can get it.)

(and there is no surprise)
a slight a mount
ex citement (quick)
re treating back to
the oldest ha bits of
letting every thing
get to you (or at least your kind of people)

drop-deading wanting and
bike-skid-suicide-mission-back-pack-full-of-glass
down-the-snowiest-hill-at-top-speed-too-late-at-night

there has been a lot of talk recently about who, he
cannot be trusted is mistaken or what isn't ours.
a fool in doubting is just a boy helping his mother
bring groceries inside from an suv's backseat:
touching serene fingers wet and running along empty
handed times new irrational fears.

exused me, I must
speak for one moment a
long dream about debt i'm
worry waked up about all
the things pre-sticking in
this moment the thousand bubbles
encumbered by word of experienced
or disillusion or sin eternally i'd
scratch of all to small envelopes or
dreams of thought during day and
their inscription them, (on all the walls)
distanced more masculine than
could you admit when
yo/u\cov-eryo=urm.outh,tospea+k#eve;ryth_ings>oun{{.ds”lik'”.eth-is

self
a b
sor(e) bed
or eyebrows
smiler-really-no-end-sight-and-jaw-widened-ever-so-slightly
or somebody else's seconds should-have-been already
winding up our own soul coughs all night
and hasn't slept in days

my other half is 2xdoubled me or squared
no lips split from exclusive mouth breathing
no contagiousness or "wake up!" no more glasses, EVER

guilt or knit projecting always
feeling like it's the end of ending it all minding
your own knees, grinding
or knocked
or are my shoulders a too moderate climate for your taste?

a newer friend asserts, more
close to the door looking me
in the eyes and says 'the days
without alcohol does the neurotic burst you
to me, i think, the same ones
with too quickly wit going
nowhere spirit and burning
desire, eyes to be closed on another

we developed:
to the top of, distant, none.
a little older, however,
not drunk with the local alternate bars with the relevant culture youth hot spot
but with shirt off in addition to illegal parts of a houseparty bar.
who is to say i'm better for it
my more hated features were rolled upwards in me,
some share, but usually during an hour or so.
feeling sorry for me, a block of ice melts in the back seat of your car.
trembling each short hair or plaid shirt laughing man no-jokes,
beer puddle pools west queen west.
at least i'm not which standard man like that.
a kitten curls itself upwards on your feet under your desk
reminds you- perhaps to call your mom, or invites a friend over.
did i really break my glasses in bed, drunk early november?

towards the top lighten
up you don't smile enough
blow even the last chance event blow-out sale
a correction develops in my beard
a garbageman hit by a Toyota 1983
my prescence on the internet decreases and
jpgs turn to dots
a little too much conflict of programming (or haha)
awaking before 8 or not going tomorrow,
to be able to return it by the wet rumbling day or of a bicep.

New-Orleans, darker and darkest that red-wine, uncorked
knowledge not actuated by batteries AA
but more extreme than the vaguest flirt of curiousity
the effect of a snowball of all the most feelings
broken beer bottles tomorrow morning
of the too busy to be killed
for girl-with-glasses, friend-ex-small-new-friend-make-u-false-excuses
smiling a disaffected air high
when kisses intelligent and bedtime
i can't even think about it

this life is hectic
but I want to always rub your back your shoulders
during the day light as not to leave
why us? errors will be made, to repeat more;
still you love the false people

your odor in my sheets, hardly there
skin-soft and lost
preparing to leave constantly;
left my lips to chap rendering them to uselessness

secretly, i'd love you to worry
perhaps about our culture
(apart from installations)
for photographed parties

the large numerical camera heat-bitch
the graffiti earlier hung somewhere
only the crisis of medium or the life-married stumblings of a man in the bar
'you young people, you have the remainder of your life to fail everything.'

so, i; the given up still
because you would say
twenty-two holding soon hardly
which luggage on my back, except a trail of
no-loves and joke-to promise-forevers no-love-letters on
stationary businesses printed paper menus re-used
listing two during once with the store

when I dropped myself drunk matches and
us, them two
stole per package of gum,
you liked it so much! (I?)
one kisses seems fantastic! but - - -
please fall deadened beside the others

the life is a joke and i'm above him, another re-run

the late-nite bicycle-assemble the financial zone when it's hot outside

closed eyes with half and an affected smile
'I think, therefore i hardly exist'
never to know the combat is not an imagination
hate me with your friend to dine the birthday of need

something interesting-
two thin boys in an alley catch your attention
why is sexual attraction a mystery with me but what I can say now?

Berlin-leap with a pretty, pretty heart,
dividing the even-child-cities perhaps we bump in another somewhere share soon.
you feel sorry for embraces-
rather those that speak
bar labelled of the fifteen dollars
spent time with my friends; I HAVE NEED FOR THEM
reasonable reasonable reasonable
to lay down it's sun sector of compartments
introduced and the binary deadened tomb

the coughing stock of the party
police in the crowd, invisible
(saw Lesser of each other)
recorded all scenes, mapped
state threads with 2xCharm
fate-Full two week
bOrder visit tomorrow

those famous lovers
stuck in perpetual cop-car
no-Motion / out-side youR house
those willing, (anxiously)

Picture yourself, alone in bed.
Coughing up #910503.
No special signifigance to badly buried dracula fangs in a dresser drawer. The lascivious no-desire english princess nude for NO-ONE. Intimacy of mutually shed blood and folk songs about acceptance. Dinner guests date inner circle sensible women. Last words so loudly they can be heard from miles around.
I accept that my own face is an accident.

you
got your City
together all knew friends now,
forever in style points and
trend codes (way too much slang)
-formal introduction to
busy laughing hotel rooms
because i could never would never just don't
say no to
a good time

(get) on with (close) conversation
-new jeans i like them (to)o
(anyone) part of this is
sticking together.

a second so finely
sore trains, best
will sadden sacks and when
will i be without needs
of words every moment
naked suddenly
of your last thought of
compositional end times

mark and memorize
road dropping confidence
known to those who snort and
trust
who's means are entirely
from the heart
/strong
walk on 99cent thrift
shoes and cross sidewalk to
24frames per second

1.
gold notebook
=ruined my life,
just > a year ago
1.
shirt
that wasn't mine
~!age sixteen driving suicide note scribbles
onto napkins at family dinner

(the actor laughs when interviewed,
his words will end up in photographs
for the next few months.)

/about the same
convincing changed & i
remark
`would have done it all,
didn`t know how to do much'

now late
early
20.

(local band writes songs about cheeseburgers
and falling asleep on the subway)

waking up with the same haircut

-

must be skater nation
---super - slow - motion
anti-itwasn'tthesamething
black and white styrofoam
coffee cup and other things i
feel guilty about

large (boring)
for here, reciept please
year long

permanent black
comes out (but not often) &
barely goes out at all

girls with arms full of shopping bag
'news'
move far too slow on the sidewalk if
i have some where to be

on my memorial vhs wall i would like the look on my face
freeze-framed
so laughs take /precedent/ over
(any) and [all]

an updated
privacy
explains little
belive me.

no, none -
fourty restricted calls
no caring about that business

unthinkable answers
greater wrongs than
'fuck i can't believe this'
'get me out of here right now'
'i'm serious'
that's closer than actually happened

doing every day that goes by
24 hour tail with
soul food excuse
right, face?
a few private - - -
;lincoln, who tHE?
bad man with good intentions

FIND

IMPORTANT

ANSWERS

THAN YOU

off duty
i could love you (if you want)
somehow (i know!)
if i tried
(%%%%harder?(
it's sunday- (i can not
i'm sorry- help the calendar)

i could said it
twice more ways new
/fuck/// i already
did
what i wanted and it didn't change
///shit/

if you had to (will)
not expecting(want), however (you're already)
stick around- here
much (it was too) longer you can
(do) find me - waiting
leather sectional sofa asleep (a week ago)
cold in my (own) blanket

to? try to! try
to& for (you) get
a. s. a. p.

)only))
memorize[d]
---could save - d

fully explained in tiredly
i hear absolutely it
hate it
middles hard, try
sleeping versus fine sex pros
leos get people.
wasn't along monogamous.

sexualizing stupid this is context
enjoy opinions
other kind of
fuck in
wicked but i also
easy talk about it
great,
chill process first
forever and ever and ever.

option for a month
full on evaluate
the last problems
comfortable place
appropriate 30 days

good friends mean
thin line
where meeting one
beginning
life has to be
ok, night.

something is not against my sacred place.

close right thing
slowly low key
good, what i'm doing
is most desirable
bring back the relationship
for five more hours
too busy right now,
let's be
honest.

i am a mess, severeign.
no-to threaten trust with the
above slipping alarm clock led
to the new periods roughly
Times New maintenance
recently or certainly which
cannot be in cofidennce;
erroneous or which isn't ours.
fool in doubts about whom
announcing cash promises to
cowardice left with an empty
bank account

you of all, the most
snow waking up morning
vouched personal astonishment
how to go about your day
whisperings on fixed devilmaycare
gifts agressively building pressure

no-things-like-all-each-other-any-more-funny-in-this-supposed-world-of-contributing-factors-how-it-all-works-out-in-the-end
like a kinked hose connected to
a sprinkler gradually wriggling itself
free and suddenly completely full.

one held laughing moment was left
with us here in that which we have
sand in our goodbyes, admired
sum of all shelf space is someone
teached in quiet unlike dissappointment
different and normal one from peace.

one second or a stop of all existing
truces and i accompany resignment of
a red-churning tonic feeling
practically true
de-all-looked-at-but-giggly-laughed-along-until-the-big-mistaking-of-you
double plus it all for once and ever
all of none trues very than ever it will
be not sure, enough or wet face no thing
left but upset eyes on a liars face.

not characteristic, I leave a short distance
a cross, this city and it is Tuesday.
our Holy Lands, our special place perhaps
we have this jointly, this. we are, indefinate,
with our stages deciciding whether we
go if is it what we think
I am older in the eyes, my speech strange?
do I walk with a straighter vagrancy suitable?
H O L D O U T F O R H O W L O N G O R W H O?
do you make confidence with the latter, theorically?
is there faith in cafes? at which distance I can push the dubious bubble?
bind our arms, it is too cold with each step.

the longest stare
was just moments long
with the biggest smirk
smoker's teeth can
f o r g i v e
m e , stairs suddenly it is
a joke and we turn away.

i t r y my best to not feel alone
with You, not ev en tHere(youtry,iknow)
or text somebody an inappropriate thought
(whatareyoudoingrightNOW(
but i'm still ruNNing home to an emPTy
brown And blue blanketed bed

by the time you read this i will be 22
(and probably) wearing boots at my desk, looking
adulter-er, confiDent-er, the resolute bender to end all benders, ending
and two less Holding-on-still fell-through-and-excusing myself
to leave the table or room

the distinguished vapour of an elegant rich girl gone bad, frustration bellows over calendars set to the wrong month because you felt september's photo was ill-fitting.

fuck our age, please.

never forget this feeling:
arm behind legs slightly intertwined accidental or whether or not it was just a space issue at the time.

maybe tomorrow different name and phone number

i could name your kisses
'ready' 'abletobealone' either, only why leave
them be? if you looked twicely cornerarounded
which I can be or not, but still two
can be good sometimes more enough than can be
or are
you
leaving.